I too felt sick, unloved, confused and a slave to my own personal hell

What is this thing –

This addiction that lies hidden in my belly

Hidden from the public’s eye

This grinding of organs and soul

This ache for happiness that is easily quenched by weakness

There is an imbalance from deep within

Somewhere between heart and mind lies my hope

My hope to be free from the shackles of mediocrity

To be free from suffering and self loathing

The first step is mindfulness

The next step is strength

Then conviction

Yearning to be normal again

Free from addiction


(you are human – it is okay to ask for help)


John C. Bader