The waning horizon that is…

….that was my childhood brush strokes a misty dawn as fog obscures the rising sun, only to eventually rise and illuminate above an inversion layer in a kaleidoscope of warm morning light. It is through the sun kissed mist that lives fractured shards of light. It’s brilliance and dazzle appear inviting and yet it is the dark deep cutting shadows below the light that defined my adolescence. Soaked in ego, an adult evolves, damaged and worn but battle tested and with nothing to lose.

Yes, there were successes and accolades that acted like treats to the audience and to my own interpersonal realities.  Maybe some of it amends the past creating affirmations for the future. Enter alcohol soft middle age that forges marriage that is as iron clad as it is malleable. Soon follows the blessings of fatherhood and the ability to right many of the wrongs of the past. Even rewrite my story…That alone, may be my undying legacy…

Now looking ahead past a half century, I look back on a colorful tapestry that is my life’s history. Some of the treads are bright and vivid with color. Some are tattered and bleached by the illumination of some 600 full moons. It is within the gaps of thoughts that my wisdom arises. With knowledge that the next few, maybe couple decades will yield an understanding of that waning horizon, so far gone now that I can no longer see the sun rising or even the warmth of high noon. But instead, I sit in the colorful yet unforeseen depths of autumn gazing with some trepidation, knowing we all walk different paths that reach the same destination.  Understanding now that life is an education of sorts. Its common denominator is love.

600 full moons later, steering my seaworthy vessel, sometimes with no destination, around the reefs of precarious evolution wondering if a new dawn will reveal itself after cessation. I believe it may, but I will not know the difference. My final story: Light, and vibration, traveling across the universe.

So be it… I am now at peace with most of it… 

John C. Bader is a photographer, wellness advocate and consultant specializing in spiritual self-evolution, meditation, and bio-energy healing. In his writing, he bridges science with spirituality and provides steps to encourage more mindfulness in daily life. His new book, The Responsive Universe – Illumination of the Nine Mandalas is a step by step process on how to begin your very own journey in Self-Discovery.

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